Why am I such a failure?
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My whole life I have never really been able to get along with anyone. When I was younger I had anger issues that kept kids at a distance.
After I got hold of my anger it was because I didn’t have any real interest in what most kids did, and in elementary and middle school it’s always about what it popular and normal, I was a reader and that was "weird".
If I ever did make friends I always ended up doing something stupid and drive them away.
By High school any friends I had I can long since lost contact with.
I was, and still am, an anime freak. That is what interested me the most and what I ended up talking about the most.
Happily in HS people like me were more common, I made friends, then I moved.
At my new school I had "friends" and I only had them because of the fact they were friends with my only two close friends at the school, my best friends.
During the summer one moved away and I lost contact with her, the other helped me out greatly when I needed.
During my 10th grade year I ended up moving back to the last town and house I was in, and going to the last HS I was in. I’ve had trouble but I still talk with my last BF.
I went back to my new HS for 3 days. During that time I tried to get back in contact with my old friends from there, but whenever I spoke to them it felt like I was a outcast and didn’t belong.
Happily in my new classes I felt like I could fit in, then, again, bad news came. Because of issues with something or other, even if I went to school and did the work, I wouldn’t make any credits.
So I ended up having to sign up for FLVS a online school for florida kids. Since me going to the normal school wouldn’t do anything for me I became a home schooler.
So it ended up with me being at home 24/7, little to no one to talk to, and nothing to really do since home life was nada.
Now, my whole life as been like this, event after event, I never cared much, I was me.
What set me off was this.
At my last high school, the second one I went to after I moved, the one with my Best Friend. I befriended a boy. We ended up talking online after I moved and then we ended up "dating" we mostly just talked, watched videos, joked around, and play WoW together. Yes, I play world of warcraft, it’s kinda how me and him met, talking about it at school.
Anyway, he is my first boyfriend, I never really got the whole dating thing, I always saw it as basically arguing, sex, and getting the other person to buy you stuff. That’s is all I ever saw, I was hoping that if I tried it myself I would see different.
Not so much. Now I hate myself.
Why? I’ll tell you.
He just had spring break where he lives, his mom was nice enough to let me come down for the break so we could spend time together. So I got a week off "school" and I went down there. I ended up having to leave early but I thought I was nice, I mean we just talked, watched tv and movies, few games on his Wii (no puns pls) and he played his guitar while I watched.
It wasn’t much but I didn’t expect much, I prefer to be laid back.
Well I get home and suddenly he’s not answering my texts or getting on wow or anything.
Today I find out that he transferred his wow character back to the server he was on originally.
So I keep sending him texts until he finally answers.
Here’s what he tells me.
While I was down there I guess I got on his mom’s, his sister’s and his nerves. They never said anything while I was there and I really really didn’t mean to make them upset, I was being myself, the same person I always am.
I find out he transferred because I got him in trouble with his mom for a little thing I said I was sorry to her already for, so now he can only stay up to 12am when he used to be able to stay up until 2am.
This matters because the guild he and I are in is a late night raiding guild, he was in it because I was in it and I was in it because my dad is the Guild Leader.
Anyway, he said he transferred because what was the point of him still playing on that server if he can’t even do the raid times?
So not only does he transfer, he does it without telling anyone anything at all.
So in all because I was myself I got my first boyfriend to basically hate me, got him in trouble without knowing, and he started to basically ignore me completely.
Am I the only one to notice the fact that by being myself I caused so much trouble for the first boy to ever like me?
My whole life has been a joke, I am so freaking annoying it seems I can’t make real friends and such a failure that any friends do have I can keep.
I’m really thinking about just closing myself off from the world, just find a job online, and never leave my house or apartment when I get one.
I like cats, I’m going to be the old virgin cat lady.
BTW I’m 18 have, no idea for a future, barely make it at home schooling, no talents other then writings which I never finish, and no looks. I’m god’s joke. Can’t get a job, basically unless at home, complete outcast at home most the time, and cause more problems then not for people I love without even meaning to.
I meant to say "useless" at home
Also I live in a town with no place to go at all other then a bowling alley, and I can’t even go there since my whole house hold is broke. Pay check by pay check as the term is called.
No gym, not mall, library is miles away so can’t get there without someone driving me, can anyone say gas and can’t walk it, bike tire is messed up, and again to money to get a new one. And again, broke so food is food as far as it’s concerned.
No friends and life sucks, WoW and a few other things are the only thing that keep me from complete isolation from the world.
We haven’t broken up "yet" but I’m thinking about it if he acts like this to me anytime if upset him by mistake without even knowing!
Your not a failure! I was once like you when i was younger! i found it so hard to make friends! I was quiet, shy, and bashful! i blocked myself from the world like you said you were going to do only to find myself spiraling into depression! I got so deep into it to that i even thought my own parents hated me! so i ended up writing a letter telling everyone not to cry for me that no one will ever miss my life! you know my mom saw that letter and i finally realised! sometimes we can’t see the friends that we do have because we never noticed them as being friends! If you need a friend or someone to just talk to I am here and am all ears! But never think of yourself as a failure!
Thank goodness for seeming LOL
1st off–chill out you good, bad things happen to shape us
Dont let your past (and split milk) break you let it make you instead. If you dont wanna be around people, then dont. I wouldnt recommend a online life LOL just go about life doing what you gotta do
Seriously your fine..relax
there are alot of worse situations =D and the feeling where u dont care v.v im in that phase and its hard as hell to get out of LOL but you cant just stop and shrink in the fetal position, you have to remember that you are enough. You are one of a kind =)
and the old virgin cat lady in time your time will come, dont rush it. Where you think something is wrong with you its not, its just not your time. It’s time to work on yourself then i’m sure others things will fall into place. GET YOU TOGETHER 1ST
((((Chin up, smile big, and start working on yourself sweetie))))
Don’t feel like that!
you’ll meet someone soon!
just try not too push it so hard on other people!
you just need a friend to talk too!
that’s all!
I love cats too!
First off your first voyage out failed, who cares try again. Relationships are not easy, people suck. You are going to get hurt a lot more than be made happy at first. When you find one that really matters though, he is going to make all those other times seem like nothing. The answer isn’t to shut yourself off and retreat. You need to open yourself up more. A little less WOW, a few less books, and a few more trips out to the real world. People do suck sometimes, but believe me it will be worth it. I myself have suffered many set backs, but I would not trade never having to feel those pains if I had to forget the good times as well.
Summarized; exercise a lot, take care of your appearance, stop playing world of warcraft, if you’re overweight lose weight, and you’ll start receiving the attention you want.
The reason your life is a joke is because you’re not putting any effort into it.
Try this…before I went to my military academy I was overweight and in a similiar situation…
Go the the gym; it’ll be uncomfortable at first, but spend time there, and if nothing else, start living on the treadmill, leg machines, and situps. It sounds like you have no shortage of spare time, so do that.
Find a friend of the same gender to go with you; it makes the place seem more appealing, and keeps you motivated to go.
Eat less, really watch what you eat. I was surprised how many calories I was really taking in. If you’re eating because you’re bored, have the willpower to stop.
The biggest problem is isolation, and being cooped up in your house is only going to make it worst; suffice to say, the best people in the world aren’t on world of warcraft. Join a relaxed church or youth group, or an extracurricular. Or better yet a sport like track or cross country.
Things don’t just happen on their own; you need to get the ball rolling with your own life.
some guy wrote "lose weight and stop playing world of warcraft" that is a horrible answer! if world of warcraft makes you happy then play it! and you didnt say anything about being overweight, so i assume you are comfortable with that. please ignore any negative comments you get on here. people love to be mean for no reason, and it is such a waste of time.
in my opinion you are a unique and fun individual! just because one person broke up with you doesnt make you any less special or awesome. it strengthens your character and in a few months you wont care at all what this person thinks about you. being yourself and doing what you love is the most important thing in life. if you have to change yourself into someone you dont like to impress some guy, then you are not being fair to yourself. you deserve to be loved for who you are. and you will be! it just takes time. you need to go out and have some life experiences. i think you should take some trips centered around what you like. you could go to comic-con, or blizz-con, or even just take a trip to disneyland or something like that.
you dont need to hate yourself for something that is not your fault. go out into the world and make discoveries! in the real world there are so many different types of people who are very accepting and loving. if you give yourself a chance to discover that then you will be so much happier!
i also think you need to not worry what people think about you. playing wow isnt a bad thing, because if it was you wouldnt do it. liking anime isnt something to be ashamed of! it has a huge fan base and is considered an art form by many people. learn to love your quirks and special qualities, they will set you apart from the crowd and earn you many friends. get yourself out in the real world and dont be afraid to fail… life is a journey and you need to get started! have fun!
To gain a friend first you have to be a friend…You cant also change the world if you don’t change yourself first, your outlook in life, your attitude towards life, You cannot make people change for you , you have to change yourself for the people. See what is happening really? No man is an island, no man can just live on its own he needs others to complement and supplement his other needs but there is a need for you to make an effort too. You cant make people come to you you have to go to people to make a difference. You also have to expect the best and the worst in life but what is important is how you are able to affront yourself and make use of both experiences since both experiences lie opportunities and lessons to learn. Be strong, do not allow time to waste you, use time in its best existence…Don’t keep one-mind track, you don’t only how many people need you, want you, love you and the only way to know this is when you get out of your shell. No one is a failure, you fail only if you don’t try, and you will be surprise to know that the synonym of success is failure, for only in failure that you will learn how to succeed…….Life is beautiful, isolation is its only enemy….Cheer up, it is not the end of the world……….